Questioning myself everyday...

Why am I like this?
Why cant i be like the others?
Why people can show interest in study but i cant?
I always wanted to study, but always fail?
Why is my life so miserable?
Am I born to have such a tough life?
Why is the thing i do never seem to have anything to do with my future?
Why do things turn out bad?
Why do i feel like dying everytime i think of this?
Why can't anybody understand how i feel or how i think? even my parents....
I know i'm dam dam dam dam complicated..

During my high school time, I used to love my life love having fun and all kind of crazy stuff i could possibly think of.
hanging out with fren through the night
Doing homework happily, get scolding by teachers, breaking small school rules
all those things lead me to a very happy life
I love my life.
but now?
I'm 18 this year... everything works like an adult.
In order to get something, i have to work for it
yea... its fair
but work load are really overloading me...
Now i question myself alot...
What is the purpose of me living in this world?
dreaming big? thinking of luxurious life? Thinking of things that is almost impossible to be done?
There are juz too many question that i cant answer...
The answers are easily answer by people, its as simple as " juz do it"
But I still cant do it.... am i juz another lousy fella living in this world working so hard for something he wan but can never be achieve?

College life is fun.... but the workload are also crazily high
I still love to be in my high school... but i know that its not possible.
the only thing i can do is to look forward and continue living this life...."so called life"
In this world now, nothing can make me feel happy....
but there is only one that shows me love and care
its my baby girl. Libby lee mun yi.
I must thank this girl for supporting me all the way...
My questions are still hanging within me.
I hope there are people who been through this before and could tell me what to do....